Text Message Received Last Night:
"It's taken a couple of episodes but I think I'm addicted to Deadwood. How was the show?"
Sent:
"He thrusted at me Simon. HE THRUSTED AT ME! My happiness is complete,"
Reply:
"I'm so happy for you! :) Was it right in YOUR FACE? I hope so."
And thus is my reveiw of the best show I have ever been to.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Monday, October 01, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
Been bad.
I've sort of gone into social hibernation at the moment, I've got some serious catching up on Uni to do.
This is because I've been tricked into working some extra long shifts at work over the semester "break", some of them 12hrs long and then I got sick so my one free day that I could have spent studying was spent in bed dreaming I was crossing the Sahara dessert with my milkplant addicted camel and strange northern lights that play music in the sky (feverdreams).
Actually that's a lie right there.
The reason I am behind in life more likely to be because of something like this:
Which lead to some things that looked a bit like this:
And this:
And so went I like this:
And did this
And all this
And it kinda desended from there into...
... I did manage to finish that bottle of vodka that I've got between my legs though...
And I went home with this:
And played stacks on with Serena and Trista while they were sleeping and I'll understand completely if they never want to speak to me again.
Also, I forgot my good friend, Liam's name for a bit ... that was more scary than awkward ... I hope he understands that I was having far to much trouble handling my own details to be concerned with anybody elses.
Person: So how old are you?
Me: Somewhere between 21 and 25.
Beat
Me: I don't know, you were at my birthday party!
I have some patching to do.
This is because I've been tricked into working some extra long shifts at work over the semester "break", some of them 12hrs long and then I got sick so my one free day that I could have spent studying was spent in bed dreaming I was crossing the Sahara dessert with my milkplant addicted camel and strange northern lights that play music in the sky (feverdreams).
Actually that's a lie right there.
The reason I am behind in life more likely to be because of something like this:
Which lead to some things that looked a bit like this:
And this:
And so went I like this:
And did this
And all this
And it kinda desended from there into...
... I did manage to finish that bottle of vodka that I've got between my legs though...
And I went home with this:
And played stacks on with Serena and Trista while they were sleeping and I'll understand completely if they never want to speak to me again.
Also, I forgot my good friend, Liam's name for a bit ... that was more scary than awkward ... I hope he understands that I was having far to much trouble handling my own details to be concerned with anybody elses.
Person: So how old are you?
Me: Somewhere between 21 and 25.
Beat
Me: I don't know, you were at my birthday party!
I have some patching to do.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Fuck you Facebook, I've got shit to do!
I've gotta stop. You know you've got a problem when you realise you have to invent limits for yourself. Limits like, "Ok, I'm only allowed to look at Facebook once in a day and only if someone has sent me a message. Poking does not count as a message."
Does save me a fortune on mobile phone costs though. All the small essays I send people via sms can now stretch even longer and costs much less. And it's sort of good for when I decide to lock myself up for a few days of serious study and writing. Good for lessoning the guiltache of loneliness brought on by self-impossed isolation. *Poke*, oh, suddenly I still feel a part of it all.
But it's a little pathetic and unheatlhy. Most unproductive activity I think I have ever taken up since I reencarnated my entire family in the Sims and developed a steamy realationship with Xanana Gusmao in Sims Hot Date. It was really lovely while it lasted but now that's over sometimes I think that if I could have the summer of 2003 back I'd like to spend it differently.
Sometimes I really do feel a little overloaded and dumbed out by it all. Like I'm missing out on some bits of realness. Sometimes I feel like Morvern Callar with her sunglasses on and walkman taped to her while she disembodies her dead boyfriend in her bathtub. Sometimes i feel like I'm lost in space. It would be nice to be able to step back from all this buzzing information space and just be a little more conscious of the physical world for while.
It would be nice also then, to be able to contribute something to the real world. Maybe I'd like to build my own story rather than live inside all these other peoples' rent free.
...
Oh god, I do write an awfull lot of inane wank don't I?!
...
Does save me a fortune on mobile phone costs though. All the small essays I send people via sms can now stretch even longer and costs much less. And it's sort of good for when I decide to lock myself up for a few days of serious study and writing. Good for lessoning the guiltache of loneliness brought on by self-impossed isolation. *Poke*, oh, suddenly I still feel a part of it all.
But it's a little pathetic and unheatlhy. Most unproductive activity I think I have ever taken up since I reencarnated my entire family in the Sims and developed a steamy realationship with Xanana Gusmao in Sims Hot Date. It was really lovely while it lasted but now that's over sometimes I think that if I could have the summer of 2003 back I'd like to spend it differently.
Sometimes I really do feel a little overloaded and dumbed out by it all. Like I'm missing out on some bits of realness. Sometimes I feel like Morvern Callar with her sunglasses on and walkman taped to her while she disembodies her dead boyfriend in her bathtub. Sometimes i feel like I'm lost in space. It would be nice to be able to step back from all this buzzing information space and just be a little more conscious of the physical world for while.
It would be nice also then, to be able to contribute something to the real world. Maybe I'd like to build my own story rather than live inside all these other peoples' rent free.
...
Oh god, I do write an awfull lot of inane wank don't I?!
...
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
The party was great
It really was.
You should have been there.
The house looked stunning. There was an indoor garden complete with astro turf and park bench. Georgia and her Industrial design buddies did wonders with the lighting. And Rob pretty much finished the building of the great cardboard dream.
My camera is busted so I have no pictures to show you.
But oh my god you should have seen the crowd. LOTS of beautiful indie boys leaning against doorways offering coy sideways glances, half checking you out, half checking if you are checking them out. I've never seen so many pairs of tight pants in one room before. (I think these were mostly the lovely Ben's friends). Plenty of pretty ladies swanning about in knockout party dresses (ME!*). Cool cats with talent aplenty rocked and beat us well into to night (Roza, your voice dazzles me! Liam, I want to have tenthousand of your babies if it's ok with Georgia. Simon, BEST SET EVA!). And I was well charmed by a few old favourites and surprise guest appearances.
Some of the presents I got:
• A copy of Anais Nin's Delta Venus
• A bottle of red
• Roses
• Nick Cave's Nocturama
• Black and white Wedgwood broach of an angel
• A fantastically ugly stuffed sock monster (an Anna Clarke handcrafted original)
• Sparkly Tights!
• China bird wistle you fill with water to make realistically annoying, high-pitch bird noises
• AN ENORMOUS RED BALL OF STRING!
The night went really damn well, so up yours all you people who imagined to worst possible scenarios for us.
The police didn't turn up once and I knew most of the people there... Well, I didn't know the guy smoking the crack pipe in the kitchen.
There were really only a few real jerks.
To the thoughtless cunts who pulled apart Georgia's shuttlecock flowers, did you know they were kinda famous and widley appreciated?
To the dickheads who stole all the pool balls, WHY?!
And to the pricks who completely destroyed my enormous red ball of string by unravelling it and spreading it all over the warehouse and up Sydney Road, I KNOW WHO YOU ARE and no I don't want to go for a walk and watch the sunrise with you EVER! We would have thrown you out of the house at 8am but stupidly we trusted you and let you stay after we went to bed. We even gave you fucking bed! That ball of string was given to me by a someone who also happens to be a good friend of one of your good friends, Marlee. Six degrees, Kevin Bacon.
Phew!
But apart from that it was a night I'm glad I'll remember for the rest of my life. Thankyou to everyone who came and made it good. And thankyou to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday in all various forms, it really made my day.
love
XX
*It's my blog about my birthday, please just let me have this one.
You should have been there.
The house looked stunning. There was an indoor garden complete with astro turf and park bench. Georgia and her Industrial design buddies did wonders with the lighting. And Rob pretty much finished the building of the great cardboard dream.
My camera is busted so I have no pictures to show you.
But oh my god you should have seen the crowd. LOTS of beautiful indie boys leaning against doorways offering coy sideways glances, half checking you out, half checking if you are checking them out. I've never seen so many pairs of tight pants in one room before. (I think these were mostly the lovely Ben's friends). Plenty of pretty ladies swanning about in knockout party dresses (ME!*). Cool cats with talent aplenty rocked and beat us well into to night (Roza, your voice dazzles me! Liam, I want to have tenthousand of your babies if it's ok with Georgia. Simon, BEST SET EVA!). And I was well charmed by a few old favourites and surprise guest appearances.
Some of the presents I got:
• A copy of Anais Nin's Delta Venus
• A bottle of red
• Roses
• Nick Cave's Nocturama
• Black and white Wedgwood broach of an angel
• A fantastically ugly stuffed sock monster (an Anna Clarke handcrafted original)
• Sparkly Tights!
• China bird wistle you fill with water to make realistically annoying, high-pitch bird noises
• AN ENORMOUS RED BALL OF STRING!
The night went really damn well, so up yours all you people who imagined to worst possible scenarios for us.
The police didn't turn up once and I knew most of the people there... Well, I didn't know the guy smoking the crack pipe in the kitchen.
There were really only a few real jerks.
To the thoughtless cunts who pulled apart Georgia's shuttlecock flowers, did you know they were kinda famous and widley appreciated?
To the dickheads who stole all the pool balls, WHY?!
And to the pricks who completely destroyed my enormous red ball of string by unravelling it and spreading it all over the warehouse and up Sydney Road, I KNOW WHO YOU ARE and no I don't want to go for a walk and watch the sunrise with you EVER! We would have thrown you out of the house at 8am but stupidly we trusted you and let you stay after we went to bed. We even gave you fucking bed! That ball of string was given to me by a someone who also happens to be a good friend of one of your good friends, Marlee. Six degrees, Kevin Bacon.
Phew!
But apart from that it was a night I'm glad I'll remember for the rest of my life. Thankyou to everyone who came and made it good. And thankyou to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday in all various forms, it really made my day.
love
XX
*It's my blog about my birthday, please just let me have this one.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
Shakespeare is Dead, Long Live Shakespeare!
I gave up on him in the end.
The perfectionist in me was well and truly bludgeoned by the end of it (R.I.P.).
But in death and endings there are also new beginnings.
A Clean Slate
Simon says that all our cells completely regenerate and replace themselves within seven years. "Every seven years we are new person," says Simon.
maybe
maybe every seven years we start again,
maybe just to do it all over again
...
Simon is leaving for Shanghai in December. Says he might stay for one year or six years depending on how things go. I might not see him ever again depending on how things go. The thought of this makes me go quiet. He says it is meant to be, (his leaving for Shanghai) his best friend aparantly had a prophetic dream about it when they were in high school. Can't really argue with prophets and dreams.
...
Leigh might be coming home soon
...
I am back at uni, only just. It's week two, but I just went to my first class today and even then I was an hour late. Not really sure how this happens. Maybe it's facebook.
Sometimes I feel a bit out of touch with the kids at in my classes. Had to explain the term 'a bit of rough' to my Women Writing B tute today. Only one other student had heard the phrase before and she seemed to be somewhere in her forties. Maybe I am finally getting old.
...
I'm planning a big birthday bash with Georgia at her warehouse. I'm turning 24 on the 22nd, Georgia is 21 on the 24th and we are celebrating on the 25 in the whalehouse. There will be bands and beautiful people. I might be dressed as bunny rabbit, depending on where the crotch sits. More details to come.
...
Had a fantastic weekend. Red wine with Georgia at Kent St seemed to make everything better. Liam introduced me to ginger wine in Cooper's pale and I'm eternally grateful for it. We went to a pool party held by PR execs (Liam's cousins). Or rather, we went to a houseparty that had a pool and went for a swim. A crowd gathered to watch us get undressed, but we were told we weren't allowed to go nudie by the host and eventually people got bored with us. However, I believe it deserves to be mentioned that my underwear was well recieved. One young lad went so far as to warn me that if I rolled a spliff in the pool his "mind would explode". We left shortly after somebody offered me $50 to parade through the house naked. It got tiresome, men that easily pleased are unsatisfying and too many started singing along to Alanis Morissette. We moved onto another party that didn't have a pool or PR execs but hairier faces and a more extensive playlist. We stayed for as long as we could stand to be outside at night in the middle of winter with wet hair.
Borrowed a bed on the floor beside Liam's drumkit in the warehouse. Drifted in and out of sleep to the tune of my mobile beeping as Rob sent me messages, wondering where I was, if I got home safely, not knowing I was hidden in the dark just metres away...hmmm.
...
I'm madly in love with all my friends. Every single one of them.
...
The perfectionist in me was well and truly bludgeoned by the end of it (R.I.P.).
But in death and endings there are also new beginnings.
A Clean Slate
Simon says that all our cells completely regenerate and replace themselves within seven years. "Every seven years we are new person," says Simon.
maybe
maybe every seven years we start again,
maybe just to do it all over again
...
Simon is leaving for Shanghai in December. Says he might stay for one year or six years depending on how things go. I might not see him ever again depending on how things go. The thought of this makes me go quiet. He says it is meant to be, (his leaving for Shanghai) his best friend aparantly had a prophetic dream about it when they were in high school. Can't really argue with prophets and dreams.
...
Leigh might be coming home soon
...
I am back at uni, only just. It's week two, but I just went to my first class today and even then I was an hour late. Not really sure how this happens. Maybe it's facebook.
Sometimes I feel a bit out of touch with the kids at in my classes. Had to explain the term 'a bit of rough' to my Women Writing B tute today. Only one other student had heard the phrase before and she seemed to be somewhere in her forties. Maybe I am finally getting old.
...
I'm planning a big birthday bash with Georgia at her warehouse. I'm turning 24 on the 22nd, Georgia is 21 on the 24th and we are celebrating on the 25 in the whalehouse. There will be bands and beautiful people. I might be dressed as bunny rabbit, depending on where the crotch sits. More details to come.
...
Had a fantastic weekend. Red wine with Georgia at Kent St seemed to make everything better. Liam introduced me to ginger wine in Cooper's pale and I'm eternally grateful for it. We went to a pool party held by PR execs (Liam's cousins). Or rather, we went to a houseparty that had a pool and went for a swim. A crowd gathered to watch us get undressed, but we were told we weren't allowed to go nudie by the host and eventually people got bored with us. However, I believe it deserves to be mentioned that my underwear was well recieved. One young lad went so far as to warn me that if I rolled a spliff in the pool his "mind would explode". We left shortly after somebody offered me $50 to parade through the house naked. It got tiresome, men that easily pleased are unsatisfying and too many started singing along to Alanis Morissette. We moved onto another party that didn't have a pool or PR execs but hairier faces and a more extensive playlist. We stayed for as long as we could stand to be outside at night in the middle of winter with wet hair.
Borrowed a bed on the floor beside Liam's drumkit in the warehouse. Drifted in and out of sleep to the tune of my mobile beeping as Rob sent me messages, wondering where I was, if I got home safely, not knowing I was hidden in the dark just metres away...hmmm.
...
I'm madly in love with all my friends. Every single one of them.
...
Friday, July 13, 2007
Unfortunate Coincidence
More and more I am finding this to be the case:
By the time you swear you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
Infinite, undying —
Lady, make a note of this:
One of you is lying.
- Dorothy Parker (1893 - 1967)
And I just noticed that Dorothy and I share the same birthday - 22nd of August, except she was born 90 years before me. I'm probably Dorothy Parker reincarnated.
Maybe this means I will get a job writing for Vogue soon.
By the time you swear you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
Infinite, undying —
Lady, make a note of this:
One of you is lying.
- Dorothy Parker (1893 - 1967)
And I just noticed that Dorothy and I share the same birthday - 22nd of August, except she was born 90 years before me. I'm probably Dorothy Parker reincarnated.
Maybe this means I will get a job writing for Vogue soon.
Monday, July 09, 2007
SAD
I think I will stay in bed today.
No, not all the hype of PIXAR at ACMI and the thought that I might disappoint Jim in my absense will drag me out.
I read an article about Seasonal Affective Disorder in the weekend papers and now I think I have it.
I think I need some sun. I don't get much of it these days. I'm usually up before it's light to spend a lot of time in office spaces without windows or occasionally in a dark gallery sharpening pencils in the children's corner. It seems the only spare time I have is in the dark and cold evenings which makes me just want to spend it curled up in bed with a comforting book and whatever cheap red will have me.
Been listening to a lot of Nick Cave lately
and finding meaning in taking pictures like this:
Simon says I should just think of all the infinate love, I'm not sure I know what that means or if I'd recognise it if it started humping my leg right now but it does sound nice.
Also I have an essay well and truely overdue. I kinda made it my life and now it seems I might be failing my life.
... and three parking fines unpaid
I blame the weather for this.
No, not all the hype of PIXAR at ACMI and the thought that I might disappoint Jim in my absense will drag me out.
I read an article about Seasonal Affective Disorder in the weekend papers and now I think I have it.
I think I need some sun. I don't get much of it these days. I'm usually up before it's light to spend a lot of time in office spaces without windows or occasionally in a dark gallery sharpening pencils in the children's corner. It seems the only spare time I have is in the dark and cold evenings which makes me just want to spend it curled up in bed with a comforting book and whatever cheap red will have me.
Been listening to a lot of Nick Cave lately
and finding meaning in taking pictures like this:
Simon says I should just think of all the infinate love, I'm not sure I know what that means or if I'd recognise it if it started humping my leg right now but it does sound nice.
Also I have an essay well and truely overdue. I kinda made it my life and now it seems I might be failing my life.
... and three parking fines unpaid
I blame the weather for this.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Blurry weekend
Got a little bit drunk with workmates on Friday afternoon, a good start.
Dragged Cara with me a whole three blocks from her house to Adam and Dell's opening. Everyone was very good looking, the beer was cheap and the art was a brilliant celebration of dreamy love and sleep which is just what I need. Kim arrived with not one but TWO pretty ladies who we joined again later at Bar Open. We also went to Shingles because apparently "that's where singles meet" and took photos of ourselves smoking. Also, one of Anna's friends thinks she might have shingles.
Went to Kim, Nathan and Casey's house for a party on a Saturday night that didn't seem to ever end.
Here is a picture of me enjoying a tumbler of Sacred Hill Cabernet Merlot.
I collapsed at what i thought was a sensible hour, 5am, and got up to go home at 10.30am to find the psytrance still pulsating through my body and beyond. I think their neighbours must have died in the night.
Simon and Stasia introduced me to a rather quaint little game called spots. Yes, perhaps we should just hot-knife EVERYTHING from now on.
Went to see Pat's play at Dante's on Sunday. There was a lot of offal on stage. There was also a lot of talk and immitation of necrophylia, but hey, that's cool. Pat was quite convincing as a sex crazed taxidermist, hmmm...
Blog is strarting to resemble a shopping list interspersed with video clips... might stop there and come back when I have more time to think of something substantial.
Dragged Cara with me a whole three blocks from her house to Adam and Dell's opening. Everyone was very good looking, the beer was cheap and the art was a brilliant celebration of dreamy love and sleep which is just what I need. Kim arrived with not one but TWO pretty ladies who we joined again later at Bar Open. We also went to Shingles because apparently "that's where singles meet" and took photos of ourselves smoking. Also, one of Anna's friends thinks she might have shingles.
Went to Kim, Nathan and Casey's house for a party on a Saturday night that didn't seem to ever end.
Here is a picture of me enjoying a tumbler of Sacred Hill Cabernet Merlot.
I collapsed at what i thought was a sensible hour, 5am, and got up to go home at 10.30am to find the psytrance still pulsating through my body and beyond. I think their neighbours must have died in the night.
Simon and Stasia introduced me to a rather quaint little game called spots. Yes, perhaps we should just hot-knife EVERYTHING from now on.
Went to see Pat's play at Dante's on Sunday. There was a lot of offal on stage. There was also a lot of talk and immitation of necrophylia, but hey, that's cool. Pat was quite convincing as a sex crazed taxidermist, hmmm...
Blog is strarting to resemble a shopping list interspersed with video clips... might stop there and come back when I have more time to think of something substantial.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
procrastinating again.
I think I may have a serious problem.
I don't do nothing I just do absolutely everything other than what I'm supposed to be doing.
Lately I have been re-reading nearly all the books I own, taking lots of very long baths, drafting plans for a radio show I'd like to present but probably won't get around to, collecting ideas for a film I'd like to write and produce but probably will never have the time or money to, re-evaluating my wardrobe just to raffirm that I cannot afford much at all, writing genius poetry that I can never show anyone and taking tea with myself a little too often.
I know it's all about choice
So why can't I just make it?
And then act on it?
"Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee?"
- Albert Camus
This is kinda nice:
I don't do nothing I just do absolutely everything other than what I'm supposed to be doing.
Lately I have been re-reading nearly all the books I own, taking lots of very long baths, drafting plans for a radio show I'd like to present but probably won't get around to, collecting ideas for a film I'd like to write and produce but probably will never have the time or money to, re-evaluating my wardrobe just to raffirm that I cannot afford much at all, writing genius poetry that I can never show anyone and taking tea with myself a little too often.
I know it's all about choice
So why can't I just make it?
And then act on it?
"Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee?"
- Albert Camus
This is kinda nice:
Monday, June 04, 2007
About the other night...
Welcome to the whalehouse
Let's mosey on down
Where can we find some men that are not entirely fucked in the heads but don't mind that we are?
What do you do?
Can you cook?
You are not like the girls in Sydney
Hilarious meat canvas
Now imagine a horse
Jimeoin asked if he could go on before me
Willyouwon'tyoudon'tyou
He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he makes me happier than I've been for quite a while. That rhymes. Double fuck.
This rough magic
One last time
The new girlfriend
We kissed in the rain but I still love him
Blue Monday at 33 instead of 45rpm
Hideous Hearts
little deaths
(...) over crushed ice $15
Let's mosey on down
Where can we find some men that are not entirely fucked in the heads but don't mind that we are?
What do you do?
Can you cook?
You are not like the girls in Sydney
Hilarious meat canvas
Now imagine a horse
Jimeoin asked if he could go on before me
Willyouwon'tyoudon'tyou
He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, he makes me happier than I've been for quite a while. That rhymes. Double fuck.
This rough magic
One last time
The new girlfriend
We kissed in the rain but I still love him
Blue Monday at 33 instead of 45rpm
Hideous Hearts
little deaths
(...) over crushed ice $15
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Old thoughts
... In the haze of a hangover, curled, I had the strangest sensation. I couldn't shake the odd perception that I was no longer in the present but somewhere else, far off in the future, looking back at this present. Somehow I had become unstuck and was living in a memory that I was yet to form long ago. I felt that this particular morning had already happened, was always going to happen and now always will, whatever may come of it...
What do you call that?
What do you call that?
Friday, June 01, 2007
Secret Brother
I found this on Polaniod.net
I don't know... this young man's face appears a little too freakily familiar to me.
Maybe he's just an actor and I've seen him in a movie somewhere before
But I can't shrug the idea that he looks a bit like my brother or my dad when he was much younger
I don't know... this young man's face appears a little too freakily familiar to me.
Maybe he's just an actor and I've seen him in a movie somewhere before
But I can't shrug the idea that he looks a bit like my brother or my dad when he was much younger
Funny email - LOL!/ blog filler
Dad sent this to me today:
Hi Jen,
A poster for your wall.
Laugh.
Dad
How does he know?!
Hi Jen,
A poster for your wall.
Laugh.
Dad
How does he know?!
Monday, May 28, 2007
If I were an artist
I'd make a big art piece that is entitled "I don't get it". I can't tell you what it would be of exactly, (I know, but I can't tell you) but it would certainly be BIG.
And then I will have a follow up called "So there you go". This would make it a little more postmodern in the hope that people might think I'm just being ironic rather than sardonic and get confused by the vagueness and not feel sorry for me later when THEY finally 'get it' and I'm over it.
Yeah, I probably don't make any sense to you right now, but that was never my aim anyway.
If you think I do, you are doing it wrong.
And then I will have a follow up called "So there you go". This would make it a little more postmodern in the hope that people might think I'm just being ironic rather than sardonic and get confused by the vagueness and not feel sorry for me later when THEY finally 'get it' and I'm over it.
Yeah, I probably don't make any sense to you right now, but that was never my aim anyway.
If you think I do, you are doing it wrong.
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